Monday Musings

For the most part, the past week has been…a downer. I hesitate to complain. I know I have so much less to complain about than others. But the truth is, I can’t be happy all of the time. Sometimes we hit a real bumpy road. Now, I can handle bumps, I’m tough. But bumpity-bumpity? That’s tough to take. And when the bumpy road involves the people you love most in the world, it totally messes with your own life. You want to fix it…but can’t.

Maybe part of the problem is winter doldrums. I’m so tired of winter and I know it’s probably far from over. We got more snow over the weekend and it was -4 when I got up this morning. However much I’m complaining about it though, the view outside my window is simply lovely. Here…I’ll share it with you:
photo (22)The wind has been non existent and the snow still sits on each tree branch. It makes a lovely picture, don’t you think?

I took this one late yesterday when I went to take care of my chickens.
0202141610The fence in the lower right is attached to our henhouse and that is our property and our woods. I love trees. They give us the gift of beauty and tranquility and serenity. And the best is that the gifts change with every season.

Thank you, trees. I feel better already.

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Monday Musings (on Tuesday)

A day late…I know.

I was actually home for most of yesterday too.

I got up yesterday morning and was getting ready to start my day, which I always do before I turn on the tv or get online. So I was surprised when Jamie texted telling me I could go back to bed. The training she was supposed to go to was canceled, as was school at both her district and the district her little guy attends. Well, alrighty then. I crawled back into bed. I mean, who am I to argue? I dozed off and on, but finally decided that I needed to get up and go get my grocery shopping done before Jim left to go to a meeting (and taking our car). Jim suggested that if he went with me that I could take him to breakfast. Again…who am I to argue? Grocery shopping done, half a veggie omelet to start the day (I always save half for Duke), Jim gone to a meeting, and a closet needing some organization. 

Well, half a closet. The other half will get done today because once again schools are canceled and I have a day free from babysitting. I found a whole box of unread books. I wondered what happened to them and thought I must have accidentally given them away. Logic would tell you that I should go ahead and get rid of them since I didn’t even know I had them. Nope. They went back in the closet with the hope that I will not forget them when I’m in need of something to read.

And I found a box of Laura Ingalls Wilder-related books. It contains some of the pre-Little House books that I have set aside for when I have grandchildren and some duplicates of books I already have. I thought it was out in our shop attic. Now I’m wondering if I have a whole ‘nother box of Laura Ingalls Wilder-related books out in the shop attic too. Yikes. This is all besides the LIW-related books that I have on my bookshelves. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve become more aware of boxes of stuff just packed away that my husband and kids will have to go through after I’m gone. I’m trying to avoid that as much as possible. There are two LIW-related topics that I hope to do some more research/learning about and I think that everything else, except for special items and souvenirs, will be passed on to those who might like them. This will be an ongoing project.

I’ve been writing this post, with several interruptions, for about three hours and have yet to start on that second half of the closet. I should probably quit putting it off.

One last thing about the closet. I also went through a couple of files and boxes and organized them into one file box. It’s one little sub-chapter of a chapter of my life that I’m putting behind me. I was a little sad about it, but with some new realizations I really know that I made the right decision. After all, I didn’t put the WHOLE chapter behind me so it’ll still make me happy. Just in a different way.

Okay…I’m not putting it off any longer. I’m going back in!

Have a nice day. Stay warm. Or not (if you’re lucky enough to be enjoying better weather than we are). Be happy. Have a good attitude. Believe me, it helps.

 

 

Monday Musings – Jan. 20, 2014

Not a lot happening during this cold January. I thought I was coming down with some bug, but I would only feel ill in the evening. Chills and no fever. Go ahead and call me weird. I was a little worried last night because it was Downton Abbey night (it’s a big night in my world!) and I wanted to be able to watch it through to the end without crawling into bed and falling asleep under five blankets. But, yay, last night I felt just fine and even ended up watching Sherlock, another favorite of mine. All of my favorite programs are on PBS. Go ahead and call me weird.

This morning I’m not feeling so great so dragging. A certain three-year-old will keep me hopping after he comes from school and has his lunch and nap. Hopefully I’ll be feeling hunky dory by then!

Looks like we’ll be (not) enjoying another bout with the deep freeze weather again this week. From what I’ve heard, we’ve reached our high (as I type this at 11ish am) and the temps just fall from here. I’m anxiously awaiting the first day of spring. The weather won’t necessarily change with the change of season, but at least there will be the hope that the temps will start rising.

Our minds are turning to preparation for our convention in a few weeks. Jim and I will complete our second (and last) year as convention chairs. It’s always a good way to learn what’s happening in our industry and see friends that we rarely get to see since we’re all spread across the state.

So…is anything exciting happening in your neck of the woods?

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Monday Musings – Jan. 13, 2014

As begins any new year (in my teen thru adult life), I tend to reevaluate the past year and what I have done with my life thus far. Then I decide that THIS is the year that I will become who I was meant to be. I’m not sure why I always think that who I am now is not who I’m meant to be, but I suspect it has to do with not being totally satisfied with myself and my accomplishments. Don’t get me wrong! I’m very happy and feel quite blessed with the life that I have. It’s just that I know there’s always room for improvement.

I always thought that my life should be full. Full of work of some sort, of hobbies and volunteering. And I still do…to a point.

I’ve been thinking a lot about exactly what I want to do with my time here on earth. I certainly don’t feel old and hope that I have many more years left, but there are no guarantees. I’ve always wanted to make a difference and I still do, but in a different way. In a more simple way. In my own way.

Maybe it has to do with losing a good friend at such a  young age nearly a year ago. Maybe it’s the passing of others who I’ve known that were gone before (what we thought was) their time. Maybe it’s seeing friends that have had to prioritize what they’re doing in their lives because of illnesses, causing them to have to give things up that have meant so much to them, having to devote their energy simply to living.

If I were to die tomorrow or become ill, what would I NOT want to leave undone?

Yep, sometimes I overthink things.

My life has changed in the past few months. I have added responsibilities that I really never thought I’d have. When I celebrated my birthday this past November, I started thinking about how I want to be remembered. And it isn’t exactly what I always thought it would be.

I did a lot of soul searching and made some decisions. I felt that it was time to reorganize my life. To that end, I’ve given up a couple of  (what I thought were) my dreams and have said good-bye to some projects that at one time were very dear to me. And I stepped down from a position that I truly loved.

In some ways, I’m sure it sounds selfish to say that I want to do my own things for a while, but that’s not really what it’s all about. I haven’t given everything up, so it isn’t going to be all about me. I am a wife and mother (no matter how old my kids are), sometimes (and hopefully one day – forever) a grandmother. Jim and I still have our business to run and the obligations that we are involved with that are related to our industry. I am committed to those obligations as long as Jim is to his. That goes hand in hand. As long as my daughter is a foster parent (and even after she adopts), I will be babysitting at least part time. Who knows, maybe other grandchildren will come along too. And I do want to have some time to do my own things! I want to read, write, and do some research projects. I want to cross stitch and work on some other crafting projects. And I hope that, through some of those things, I will be making a difference. Just in a different way.

Believe me, I am well aware that what I’ve done is a drop in the bucket compared to the service that many many others that I know have given of themselves. I used to think that I couldn’t just be an observer, that I had to be a participant. But I also feel that after more than 25 years of chairing, leading, serving and working both behind the scenes and at the forefront, I deserve to step back. For now.

And so I have.

As soon as WordPress fixes their glitch, I will add the photo that I’m trying to put right here.

 

Do Me A Favor?

Since I started blogging on Blogger and switched to WordPress, I followed many of my favorite blogs through both platforms. Sometimes Blogger tells me that I’m not following any blogs.

I was wondering if I could ask that if you have a blog, could you leave a link to your blog in the comments here. I’ve lost some of you and want to visit those of you who are kind enough to stop and visit me.

Thanks!

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Monday Musings – Jan. 6, 2014

Feels weird writing 2014…

So how many are snowed in? We got quite a bit of snow yesterday and through the night, but it had stopped by the time I woke up this morning. We live on a main road and the county road commission stayed on top of things so our road is clear even though you will be driving on ice and packed snow. Those plow and salt truck drivers worked (and are continuing to)  hard. Knowing that the temps would be dropping drastically after the snowstorm which makes salt ineffective, they tried to keep up with the things so our roads would be driveable. So kudos to the road commission!

Jim was out plowing here at our place for two hours. We don’t just have a driveway, we have a circle driveway and another driveway on our property next door. We have a huge yard for our business that needs to be cleared. He has to be able to get the work trucks out. And if he doesn’t clear it away now, it’ll freeze hard and the job will be that much more difficult. Might as well do the job right the first time. Plus, he plowed part of our neighbor’s (our rental) driveway. He came in for a nice hot bowl of oatmeal before he headed over to our son’s house to plow his driveway so at least Jon won’t have to worry about that when he gets home from work tonight. After all this, Jim will do any service calls that need doing. Business is slow, though, so that’s a good time to spend some time in the shop doing the many needed repairs.

I thought about going out and taking pictures before he started plowing, but honestly…it’s cold out there and I’m not that dedicated a photographer. If I have to go out later, maybe I’ll take some.

First day of school back from Christmas break was cancelled all over our area and beyond. Some of the schools are even cancelled tomorrow because of the back roads and cold that is predicted. Not my daughter’s district though. We’ll see. I was ready to get back into the swing of things. I’ve missed our little guy, but I’m sure he’s not complaining about the extra day home!

I’ve done a lot of thinking the past few days. This is what happens when I don’t have a three-year-old here to occupy me. I’ll save those thoughts for another day.

And…here ya go! I stood up and took a picture from my office window. It’s not very good (through the window and screen) and not very flattering. But that there is part of our backyard. And the little red house? That’s where my three chickens, who are feeling their age, are all cozy with their heat lamp and heated waterer, plenty of food and lots of bedding. They don’t like to venture out far, if at all, this winter.

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Reflecting…

newyear

Yep. I’m back. I’m not making any promises, but I do want to come back.

During the past few months, I’ve been pulled in a few different directions and as usual my writing suffers the consequences. I’ve had so much to say, but many things that I can’t share in such a public way. I tried keeping a private journal to get those thoughts on paper, but I just don’t keep up. I’ve honestly had a hard time keeping up with many of my obligations.

And that’s something that I need to work on in the new year.

So what have I been up to?

Well, I continue to babysit my daughter’s three-year-old foster son. He goes to school for half a day now so I put  him on and get him off the bus. For real! I have to buckle him on and unbuckle him off. He will be going back to his family soon. For about four weeks, she also had a toddler baby girl. We were so very sad when she left to go stay with a family member. There’s so much I would love to share in this part of my life, but of course I can’t…

When I look back over the past year…

We lost a very good friend. It’s still hard to believe he’s gone. It seems at this age that we go to many more funerals than we do weddings.

We’ve gotten to experience grandparenthood, but have yet to have a grandchild officially join our family.

The business is still going and it’s keeping busy enough for us to pay our bills, keep a roof over our heads and food on the table. And we’ll be doing okay if it keeps on like this.

Our kids are both working and they both own their own homes. Life is sometimes a bumpy road and I’m hoping for a smoother 2014 for them both.

We (my family) are all relatively healthy.

We didn’t take any big trips this past year, but then we’re not very adventurous people.

Does my life sound boring? I guess to some it must. To us though? To us it’s just fine.

Wishes for this new year?

As always, to try to be a better me.

For my husband and kids to be happy and healthy. And for some of their wishes to come true!

For good health and happiness for my family and friends.

And the gift of life for a very special friend.

My wishes are grand yet simple. My life is simple yet happy. I hope to share more of it with you during 2014.

Happy New Year to you all.